The Year: 2091

The Year: 2091

The year is 2091

I am old and frail

But I recognise you, still

In the distant morning sun

As I walk down the long garden trail

Alone

Every Saturday

Without stopping

Without fail

 

This time

I take my time, slowly, towards the Coffee Shop at the end

Can it be, after all these years

That I am finally seeing you,

Again?

Through the long grown green bushes, down the yellow path

My heart beats

One

Two

Three

Oh

 

And All I See

Is You

Through my tears

Standing there, with your walking stick

And thin dimpled smile

And white hair

Blowing in the wind, without a care

Is it you, Is it you?

I touch your arm lightly,

And I know you, I know you

I say.

 

and I Smile back

ever so slightly.

 

Hello, Hello

You do, You do

We met over 80 years ago

On this very same day

In fact

 

Today, I left the hospital behind

And came to find you.

I couldn’t stay away any longer

And I know you come by this way

Every weekend, for the past few years, during May

 

I saw you once, you know, when you weren’t looking

You were sitting over there, by the pond

Scrapbooking

And you looked so glorious in the midday sun

Like the day I saw you in London

When you were signing your books

And greeting your fans

 

But you didn’t know, you didn’t know

That I came and stood at the back

All those years ago

Hoping to catch you

At one of your sold-out shows

 

You didn’t see me though

You didn’t see me go

To the tree you mentioned

The one that hangs low

 

I went and sat in the shade

My head against your works, watching the sunlight fade

Under the clouds, on the grass, in the corner of Hyde Park

on a long day, it was, during the middle of March

 

And You don’t know, You don’t know

How I’ve read your words over and over

In the books, and the blog posts

In the comments, and the grey papers

You mention me

All over 

 

In your Art, and Your Eyes

I can see

My green shirt

And Aztec print jumper

In the tall glass building

Where we first met 

Sometime between the summer and winter

I remember, I remember too

Don’t think I don’t

Because I do, I do

 

That’s why I came today,

I came looking for you.

I need to say something

Before my days are over, and everything turns misty blue

And you are beyond my reach

And there are no more chances for us, to meet 

I’m sorry, I’ve never said it before

I never knew, that you wanted more

But here I am, and it’s true

I love you

 

I love you too.

Monthly Musings, Entry 01 | April 2017

I used to keep a diary when I was younger, charting in unnecessary detail mundane life events, my feelings and all manner of things that occurred throughout the day, from what I was eating to documenting which sibling had decided to ruin my life that day. I gave up diary writing as I got older however, as life, studying and lack of sleep got in the way, and although I tried to pick up the habit again over the years, it never seems to have stuck.

Recently I have noticed that a lot of bloggers online do Monthly Favourites posts, whereby they share a few of their favourite things that month with their readers. I thought it was a great idea, and perhaps a bridge between diary writing/blogging/keeping a memory log of things I’ve encountered or been inspired by, and in line with my New Year’s goals, what new things I’ve tried.. or attempted to try.

So here’s the first of my Monthly Musings posts. It’s an attempt to show the more ‘cultural’ stuff I do I suppose, things that I am passionate about, experience etc. Hope you enjoy reading them, and perhaps may even be inspired to check out some of the stuff too!

LISTENING TO…

THE 1975 – I LIKE IT WHEN YOU SLEEP, FOR YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL YET SO UNAWARE OF IT

I discovered these guys very recently (like two days ago lol) whilst scrolling through some Instagram Stories of people I follow. They are an English rock band from Manchester, and recently won a Brit Award for Best British Group, so if you haven’t heard of them yet, I’m sure you will soon! I’ve been listening to their second album I Like It When You Sleep, for You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware of It. The style is a mixture of my favourites really – jazz, post-rock, R&B, soul, indie rock and a bit of dance rock. So currently listening to this (even as I write this blog post), and plan to work through the rest of their material. My fave tracks so far are ‘She’s American’ and ‘If I Believe You’. I would give them a listen if you haven’t already 🙂

RO JAMES – ELDORADO

I stumbled across Ro James at work whilst putting a random playlist on play on Spotify. He’s an American R&B/Hip-Hop/soul singer-songwriter. I haven’t managed to work through his whole album Eldorado yet, but plan on doing so. I just like his voice basically. I’ve downloaded the whole album (the perks of being an Amazon Prime member – get lots of albums on Prime for freeeee!!), so will give the whole thing a listen to at some point.

MAX – HELL’S KITCHEN ANGEL

Again, stumbled across MAX on a Spotify playlist and then proceeded to download the whole album on Amazon Prime on my iPod. I’ve only listened to ‘Lights Down Low’ so far, which I liked, but plan to work through the whole album, most likely on my journey to work. Don’t know much about MAX at all – but seems like a newbie.

READING…

FEAR THE DARKNESS BY BECKY MASTERMAN

Took me much longer to finish reading this than I expected to, as I hoovered the first book in the series (Rage Against the Dying). I personally didn’t think this was as good as the first; naturally very well written but felt that the storyline dragged out a bit and was surprised that Brigid Quinn, a former and very highly-skilled FBI agent, didn’t catch onto what was happening sooner. The next book in the series, A Twist of the Knife, came out recently, and I do plan to pick up a copy as I really like the characters and Masterman’s writing.

WATCHING…

DOWNTON ABBEY

As usual, eons behind the times, but as I’ve been sick since the beginning of Easter weekend, all I’ve been doing is lying in bed watching episode after episode of Downton Abbey and sitting up every 4 hours to take a round of painkillers. Grim, I know. I’ve managed to consume 3 series in about 3 days, and now have slowly started to lose interest as my favourite characters have died. But I have immensely enjoyed the show thus far; I have a perennial fascination with a lot of stuff about the Victorians / early 20th century / industrialisation / post World War 1 era. I will aim to continue to watch the show but perhaps less obsessively so. Most likely when I’m walking uphill on the treadmill during a lazy gym session.

GRACEFITUK

She’s a young fitspo on Instagram and has recently started a lot of fitness/life vlogs on Youtube. I think she’s hilarious and she’s also smart too, so have been consuming quite a few of her videos recently. She’s done a whole series on cutting – ‘Summer Shred’ – which are a really great watch if you’re trying to eat healthy and get lean for summer.

EATING…

Far too much afternoon tea (and painkillers) this month! From never having tried it, to having it twice within the span of a few weeks. Not crazy about the amount of sugar but I like trying little bits of everything when it comes to food, so it’s great if you like variety (which I do!).

VISITING…

BLENHEIM PALACE

It’s been a while since I’ve done anything particularly cultural. My best friend moved to Abingdon (near Oxford) for her new job in early April, so when I visited her we trekked to Oxford and wondered around the University, and then the following day visited the gorgeous Blenheim Palace. Everything was extra lovely because it was gloriously sunny! A little too sunny perhaps, and as per usual, I was totally unprepared for the weather with my all black attire -_- .

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The palace is the principal residence of the Dukes of Marlborough, and the birthplace and ancestral home of Sir Winston Churchill. It was great walking around inside and learning about the history of the palace and the fashion and lifestyle of a bygone era. I especially enjoyed learning more about Churchill’s life – for instance, I had no idea he was such a romantic, and also a painter – and a very good one at that too!

WRITING…

ART & LYRICS

Been too ill to write anything too substantial, but still exercising my creative faculties as much as possible through my ART & LYRICS series, which I started this month. The project combines my love for art and rhyme, and reflects my desire to express myself and my experiences through those mediums. This is probably some of the most personal stuff I’ve ever created and shared.

You can check them out here:

DRAWING…

POP ART

MY FEELINGS. Joke. Not. At least I’m not eating them eh? Sigh. I wish people realised the impact their words or actions can have on others, or lack of action.

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‘That was a dick move’ – he said.

TRYING…

HEALTHY EATING

I’ve been trying to get back into eating healthy again as I’ve been a bit all over the place since January, so have been cooking lots of soups and meal prepping. This morning I made my first mug cake topped with lots of yoghurt and fruit and it was super delicious! Eating healthy does not have to be boring and I always incorporate treats like chocolates into my day, if I really want it.

GRENADE PROTEIN BARS

They’re expensive, but they’re worth it XD . They actually taste like food, unlike Whey protein bars, which taste like shite.

PODCASTS

I know I am massively late on the scene with this, as with most other things in life, but recently I have been trying to get into listening to podcasts. I thought it would be good to listen to some stuff whilst travelling to work that isn’t music once in a while so I can learn some new things. I love anything on psychology, history, art and literature, but can’t seem to find anything good to get into. Any recommendations? Please let me know!

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ART & LYRICS: Post 3

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I would like to lie under that tree / the one with the blossoms / with you beside me. / And on that day / when we meet again unexpectedly / and you tell me all the things / I never thought you’d say / we can draw our names / in heart shape and form / on the brown bark / with our fingers / intertwined / like in the stories and songs / where you are mine / and I am yours / and where the shadows dance around us / in the moonlight / all night long.